其實我不快樂

By 鍾嘉欣

離別你不經意地 想工作暗天暗地
直到可睏倦沉睡 不掛念你
情願我呼天叫地 總好過這麼顧忌
害怕走往日場地 倘碰着你 會撐不起
和誰在一起 都用來共你相比
就算了不起 只可做到我知己
誰若寄望替代你
最尾都要放棄 只能退避
和誰在一起 很自然共你相比
就算遊戲 笑着也未快樂得起
難道我在寄望有天可失憶 找到轉機
其實我很不快樂 想躲進暗黑街角
淚再可痛快地流落
不知哪日會對愛再有感覺
和誰在一起 都用來共你相比
就算了不起 只可做到我知己
誰若寄望替代你
最尾都要放棄 只能退避
和誰在一起 很自然共你相比
就算遊戲 笑着也未快樂得起
難道我在寄望有天可失憶 找到轉機
和誰人在一起 都用來共你相比
就算了不起 只可做到我知己
誰若寄望替代你
最尾都要放棄 只好退避
和誰在一起 很自然共你相比
就算遊戲 笑着也未快樂得起
難道我在寄望有天可失憶
難道這份記念如像空氣 欠缺就會死
About This Song

The song "" ("Actually, Im Not Happy") by (Bosco Wong) explores the profound emotional struggle of longing and heartbreak. At its core, the song presents a poignant reflection on the aftermath of a significant relationship. It captures the duality of being surrounded by people yet feeling isolated in ones sorrow, as the protagonist continuously measures any new connection against the past love, leaving them feeling comparably empty and unfulfilled. The repeated acknowledgment of unhappiness serves as a powerful reminder of the emotional weight that accompanies lost love.

The narrative unfolds as the singer expresses a desire to escape their current state, wishing to retreat into the shadows of their memories where tears can flow freely without judgment. This longing to forget speaks to a universal experience of wanting to bury the pain in hopes of eventually rediscovering joy and affection. The recurring line about the futility of trying to replace someone underscores the futility of moving on when memories linger, ultimately leading to a cycle of disappointment and introspection about the nature of relationships.

Musically, the song employs a melancholic melody paired with an intimate vocal delivery that emphasizes the vulnerability of the lyrics. The structure and repetition within the verses enhance the feelings of entrapment in cyclical thoughts, while harmonies add depth to the emotional narrative. Additionally, the use of stark imagerylike hiding in dark corners to freely express painallows listeners to visualize the intense emotional landscape the artist navigates, making the experience relatable.

Culturally, the song resonates with many listeners in the Chinese-speaking world, where themes of love, loss, and emotional introspection are commonly explored in music. It taps into a broader cultural understanding of relationships, encapsulating the pressures to move forward while grappling with lingering attachments. "" thus not only serves as an anthem for the heartbroken but also fosters a sense of camaraderie among those who have faced similar emotional battles, highlighting the importance of vulnerability in the healing process.