洗澡

By 林欣彤

已經一天手腳麻痺
以僅有呼吸隱閉在家
已經三天感覺胃痛
看一隻烏蠅戀上面包
已經七天打斷聯絡
要找救傷車失去電話
我都開心因你頹廢
沉淪浴缸中不要向上爬
第一千天未曾洗澡
沉迷做你信徙
頑固思憶再污糟 污跡都帶愛慕
骯髒相愛記號 喊破的眼睫毛
臭到令人嘔吐 無言地控訴
懶得梳的打結頭髮
缺少你消失打理動機
懶得清的瑣碎垃圾
要跟我瑟縮於一角做知己
懶得修的指甲長到
快將要尖得抓破自己
浸於花樽死了玫瑰
無聊地呼吸你殘留毒氣
第一千天未曾洗澡
沉迷做你信徙
頑固思憶再污糟 污跡都帶愛慕
骯髒相愛記號 喊破的眼睫毛
臭到令人嘔吐 無言地控訴
毫無事情想做 毫無任何喜怒
毫無榮辱悲歡鎖我到地牢
第一千天未曾洗澡
如同是個女巫
頑固思憶再污糟 污跡都帶愛慕
骯髒相愛記號 引證戀愛旅途
愛到比愛恐怖 你會否知道
About This Song

The song "" (Bathing) by (Lin Xin Tong) explores themes of emotional entrapment, love, and the toll that obsessive attachments can take on a person's mental and physical state. At its core, the song expresses feelings of neglect and decay, symbolized by the metaphor of not bathing for a thousand days. This neglect reflects a deep sense of surrender to a toxic relationship, where the protagonist's well-being is compromised by their fixation on their partner. The emotional weight of the lyrics resonates with anyone who has experienced a tumultuous relationship, highlighting the interplay between love and pain.

The narrative unfolds with vivid imagery of physical and emotional deterioration. The protagonist describes a series of increasingly desperate scenariosconfined at home with paralysis in limbs, stomach pain, and a breakdown of communication. Each stanza builds on this sense of decay, painting a stark picture of someone who feels trapped and suffocated by their unyielding feelings. The repetition of "" (has not bathed) serves as a poignant reminder of the neglect faced, both personally and relationally. It conveys a story of love that has spiraled into a state of neglect, where cherished memories are tainted by unhealthy fixation.

Musically, the song employs a melancholic yet captivating melody that complements the heavy themes presented in the lyrics. The use of imagery, including references to physical appearances and mundane tasks that become overwhelming, serves to enhance the sense of entrapment. Notable lyrical techniques include the use of repetition and stark contrasts, which emphasize the protagonist's inner turmoil and conflicted feelings about love and self-worth. Additionally, the imagery of dirtiness associated with love leads to a visceral reaction, making the audience reflect on the nature of affection and obsession.

In a cultural context, "" resonates with the broader discussions around mental health, self-care, and the complexities of modern relationships. The song's frank exploration of neglect and emotional struggle offers a lens into the often unspoken aspects of romance and personal care. By presenting a raw narrative of love intertwined with feelings of worthlessness, contributes to a growing body of work that urges listeners to confront and embrace the less glamorous aspects of love, prompting a more profound conversation about emotional health in contemporary society.