自欺欺人

By 趙學而

期望你忽然 悟覺之時 仍未太晚
期望我忽然 後悔之時 仍未傷得太深
其後淡然習慣 即使不稀罕賠掉時間
我總有天氣餒心淡
用你飄忽的好意 換我最難忘一次
是我愛上浪子 不可以
獨個令你心儀
用我青春押一注 換你回頭停留是處
只想你到最後 心中會內疚
還後悔付出的愛不夠
用我冀盼的雙眼 換你偶爾來一晚
用我無窮容忍 姑息你
但你視作等閒
如何自處 怎麼我今次 願意孤擲一注
為何可以 拋開了一切
為你一人 自棄森林 任性一次
About This Song

The song "" ("Deceiving Oneself") by (Zhao Xue Er) delves into the complexities of love and the painful acceptance of emotional sacrifice. At its core, the song explores themes of regret, yearning, and the duality of hope and despair in relationships. The lyrics express a longing for realization and repentance, suggesting that it may never be too late to change ones feelings, even when confronting the depths of heartache.

The narrative conveyed through the song unfolds as a poignant reflection on unreciprocated love and self-deception. The protagonist grapples with the notion of investing youth and hope into a relationship that seems one-sided, revealing a deep-seated desire for acknowledgment and connection. This journey is marked by a bittersweet acceptance of the emotional toll that love can exact, reflecting the universal struggle between love and ego, desire and reality.

Musically, the song integrates soft melodies with emotive storytelling, employing lyrical techniques that evoke imagery and introspection. The use of natural metaphors, such as the reference to weather, signifies emotional fluctuations and highlights the protagonists inner turmoil. The melancholic yet hopeful instrumentation underpins the expressiveness of the lyrics, allowing listeners to engage deeply with the emotional landscape of the song. The contrast in the lyrics vulnerability and the strength of the yearning creates a resonant experience for the audience.

Culturally, "" resonates within the context of modern relationships, especially among younger generations navigating the complexities of romantic connections. The themes of self-deception and emotional investment reflect broader societal issues surrounding love and personal identity in an ever-changing world. As such, the song serves not only as an artistic expression but also as a commentary on the dichotomy of human emotions, making it a significant piece within contemporary Chinese music.