暴烈34

By 林嘉欣

誰比誰應難過
連家用都拒絕驚玷污你麼
還是你不甘心靠我在養家刻意要挑釁我
感激通知我會在明日上班拼搏
多麼圖強自立喔
終於擺脱我
這一餐我請
替你祝賀
何必如此嫌棄
回家前飲到爛醉亦合情理
難道你想推開我當垃圾般處理也忍受你
一巴掌將我怨恨壓抑
全奉還給你
一齊埋沒天理
多麼想躲我最後這一巴
但你偏 懶迴避
虐待你能挨多一步
虐待我才能互相找生路
叛逆慣為何不肯反抗
也沒人被起訴
愛死了為何未捨得去超度
婚姻墳墓 安全過囚牢
為捍衞面子
別人可會這樣做
受害慣才互相施暴
別問我誰是虐殺愛的兇徒
若是你情願揹着我哭顯示過得比我好
要比並是誰段數越挨越高
困在籠牢憑什麼打賭
比較是誰先精神崩潰便知道
明知情感危殆
孩子無知也扮到備受憐愛
難道最初敢不顧世俗
也敢於愛到不自愛
我偷望你打開冰格
去讓愁容和淚痕掩蓋
想埋藏着感慨
將抑鬱都冷凍是要我
還是你不再存在
虐待你能挨多一步
虐待我才能互相找生路
叛逆慣為何不肯反抗
也沒人被起訴
愛死了為何未捨得去超度
婚姻墳墓 安全過囚牢
為捍衞面子
別人可會這樣做
受害慣才互相施暴
別問我誰是虐殺愛的兇徒
若是你情願揹着我哭
顯示過得比我好
要比並是誰段數越挨越高
既是囚徒還是要擁抱
監禁着肉身精神可會在飛舞
最初要自由但卻未能自保
玩具熊殘舊
縫了再補
婚戒像頑石完好
誰又肯走上陌路
難道成熟得太早
About This Song

"34" by (Gigi Leung) dives deep into the emotional turmoil and complex dynamics of a troubled relationship. The song explores themes of love, pain, and domestic strife, depicting the struggle to balance personal independence with the expectations of partnership. The raw emotions conveyed in the lyrics lay bare the conflict between deep attachment and overwhelming frustration, effectively capturing the disillusionment felt by individuals in toxic relationships.

The narrative of the song revolves around feelings of resentment and the desperate need for self-liberation. It tells a story where love becomes a battlefield, filled with accusations and emotional scars. Lines that reflect on betrayal and the desire for validation reveal the pain of feeling trapped, as the protagonist questions whether their sacrifices are worth the price of love. The duality of affection and aggression suggests an entangled existence where mutual pain perpetuates suffering, leading to a haunting acknowledgment of a relationship that feels like a prison rather than a partnership.

Musically, the song incorporates poignant melodies paired with intense, confessional lyrics, utilizing techniques such as vivid imagery and personal reflections. The contrast between softer verses and more explosive choruses enhances the emotional weight of the narrative, providing listeners with a sense of fluctuating tension akin to the ups and downs of a fraught relationship. The use of metaphors, such as comparing marriage to a grave, emphasizes the sorrow and entrapment experienced by the individuals involved.

Culturally, "34" resonates within contemporary discussions about love, mental health, and emotional abuse, particularly in the context of modern relationships in East Asian society. It challenges traditional notions of marriage and gender roles, offering a voice to those who may feel voiceless. The song's ability to articulate such a stormy emotional landscape highlights its relevance and power, making it an essential piece for anyone navigating the complexities of love and personal identity.